It is time for you to take spiritual responsibility for your life, stop depending on everyone for your well being and depend on God.
"Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him. Truly he is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." ~Psalm 62:5-8